What I deserve

I deserve stability and balance. I deserve to not wonder why I stand. I deserve someone who tells others we’re dating. I deserve someone who appreciated me. I deserve to be chased, not the one chasing. I deserve to be loved, purely. I deserve someone who stays.

Here’s some advice…

Stop taking advice from those who wouldn’t take advice from you. Seems simple, you’ve seen this advice before. But do you take it and apply it to your life? Probably not if you’re still reading this. We are all people pleasers in some aspect of our lives. Whether it be in our personal or romantic …

Toxic is toxic

I have a toxic relationship with my parent. Before you get on me about needing to always love her and basically needing to put you with her, I’m here to tell you no. No you don’t. We tell people to leave toxic relationships. But when that relationship is with your parent, we basically tell people …

Broken Promises

We take promises seriously in my family. If you can go back, or break, the littles of promises, it shows that you will go back on your word on anything. Don’t make a promise you can’t keep. I had to sit next to a crying child because her dad promised to see her. She was …

I’m back

I didn't realize I have been gone for, almost, two years. I would love to say that I finally figured it all out, I found my happy ending. That I crawled my way out of a depressed state and survived those dark days. Or that I have struck the lottery and A and I are …

I’m too old to be swiping

For the last two months, I have been texting a decent guy. He hasn't given me any red flags. We've talked on the phone. Sent appropriate picture to confirm we aren't catfishing (using a false identity) each other. But, we still haven't met. Don't ask me why, because I don't know why. Yes, busy schedules are …

It’s been way too long

I haven't blogged in a while because things just got busy and complicated. There were so many times where I needed someone to listen to what has been happening, but I kept thinking, "I'm just complaining and no one wants to read that." But that was kinda the point, right? Not necessarily complain, but to express …

Co-parenting sucks

I'm sure it has taken time for some parents to come to a mutual understanding that it's all about the child/children. They are the ones that can sit with each other at the sport games, school concert or can tag funny kid memes on Facebook and get along just fine. Then there is us. Now …

It’s going to be a long month

To write is to be exposed; to be exposed is to be vulnerable. This is the hardest blog yet. It is (almost) one month before my 33rd birthday.  And I panicked. Not because I'm getting older, but because I will officially out live my dad. I thought this year would be the best yet. 32 …

Loneliness

I've been by myself since last Friday. Besides work, I have no one to talk to. My apartment has been quiet. Honestly, I haven't said one word since I left work. No one to talk to.  I miss her. I would take the random coversations over the quiet anytime.  I have had people say, 'it …